Painful Love

Love is always painful,
It was, it is and it will be.
Though I knew that,
I came back to you,
expecting a quite new world,
with loads of love and happiness.
I don't wanna lose you,
but the things happen,
make me feel that,
you are gonna leave me,
or create bigger suspicions,
between us always.
I have fallen,
not once, twice or thrice,
but many times,
you'd not even imagine or count.
I don't wanna fall once again,
and lose my confidence.
For the sake of keeping me
never hide or act fake,
because otherwise,
it would help me leave you
sooner or later.
I don't blackmail you by,
emotionally ruling over you.
I do all these because,
I hate to reflect on my past again.